What I'm experiencing when I close my eyes
What I'm experiencing
It started about two years ago now. January of 2024. At first I thought I was seeing things, but as it persisted, multiple times a night, every night, I started seeing, what I would describe as orbs. Tiny points of light that appears and most of the time disappear in the blink of an eye. Different colors, most time red. Different colors would appear, but would be the same color the whole day. Some days I would see blue, other days green or white. Then some of the orbs started looking different. Some had a pearl florescent glow to them. It would happen a lot when I would open my eyes after resting them. They'll quickly disappear, as if they were spying or looking at me.
A year later things changed drastically. in January of 2025, something was installed and/or activated in my brain. I noticed rings in both ears, but louder in my right. A few weeks went by, and day by day the rings grew louder and louder. I realized the rings were not only reacting to my thoughts, but responding as well. It seems as if they needed a 'positibe or a yes' response, the rings will get louder. If no, then the rings will stY the same. So I asked questions about who they are and where they're from. I won't give their responses, I now know everything they told me was a lie. Keep reading, I'll explain.
Around the 25th of January of 25, I started seeing things anytime I close my eyes. At first it was shapes and geometry and I realized I can control and move it around with my mind. As my vision of this other 'world' cleared up, other worlds, other dimensions, beings and so much more came into focus.
By about mid February of 25, they were forcing me to play games. I control these games with my mind effortlessly. It not really thinking about what you want to happen and it does, it's more like focusing and doing it with your mind, if that makes any sense. It sounds like a sci-fi movie, and trust me, I feel like I am in one, but this is my life now, and I can't shut it off.
The first game was creating a universe. I spoke a universe and planets into existence. At the time, no words were being spoken to me, just the rings, and I didn't know it at the time, but they were talking to me through what they call "intent". Intent is pretty much every feeling, every thought, everything you intend to do, or not do, it is called intent. For example, if I think about rubbing my eye or getting on a plane and flying to Jamaica, it will all register as intent. You'll understand why I said 'register' as you read. But, everything you or say, is intent, and you can feel the intent of others. You can talk with no words. You're able to portray a full paragraph and one second, just so long you're able to rap it up in a couple thoughts. You'll know it as telepathic communication, but being trapped in this world, I know 'the locals' call it intent.
Intent isn't read-only. It's writeable as well. They can send a laugh intent to me, and I'll laugh. Intent to cry, real tears will come out of my eyes. intent to be annoyed, you'll be aggravated for no reason. Intent to be happy, you'll feel joy. Sad, anger, jealous, even confused, it's all intent they can push, and you'll feel it. At first, you'll think it's your own thoughts or emotions, but after a while, you'll start to notice the difference.
Back to the games. I realized really quick, not only is my mind connected to this system, but so is my body. I started to get cold rapidly. Again at the time, I thought it was my thoughts, my ideas, I thought I figured out what to do on my on. My universe was expanding rapidly and cooling in the process, and apparently, I have another body. And it so happens this body is in this rapidly expanding and cooling universe. I can feel every degree drop. let's add some heat. I spoke stars into existence. it was finally warm. I did it, I figured it out for about 5 mins. It was still expanding and now the stars I've added was insufficient. I dealt with this for a few days. I was homeless, sleeping in my car, with no heat, trapped in a cold universe. I can only help myself.
If they allow me, and they did for about 3 days, in the cold days of winter 25, I can heat my body. Two ways. first being, I can create a star, and I fly inside said star, the heat will keep me warm. Another way, I can just heat up my body. If you're standing next to me, you'll feel the heat coming from my body. Same for cooling, either just think of cooling my body, or think of cold air blowing on me, and immediately, I'll feel what feels like a portable central air blowing from nothing. Not sure if others can feel that, I haven't tested it. I've told my sister and my parents what's happening to me and no one else, cause they don't believe me, so what's the point?
The "realm" as the locals call it seems like quantum level computing on a almost spiritual scale. The realm is clear as the physical world you and I live in. Clear as an hd 4k TV, maybe clearer. The entities faces almost seem more real than ours. I can't explain how, but it's almost like they have more detail, like somehow, the realm is being played on a higher definition TV than our reality.
The first clear voice, directed to me, I heard at about the beginning of March 25. "Ok, can you hear me?" I responded, "yea". Ever since that, the voices don't stop. Tho, I talk to one or more entities, I'm not sure if I ever spoke to anyone real. The voice that constantly speaks gives serious AI vibes. Took me a few months to realize, but it is definitely AI.
They tried to tell me, I'm a chosen one, but they didn't say that word until those videos started popping up in my YouTube feed. They also told me I was the creator of this simulation, and in the real world I have a powerful company and trapped everyone in here, and I was captured and trapped by my employees to teach me a lesson. I actually believed that cause they made me believe I was gonna exit the matrix and free everyone. They put me in a vortex tunnel, and at the end of the tunnel, I can see two women in lab coats standing next to a pod or a hibernation chamber, awaiting my arrival. When I saw that, I froze and lost focus and fell back into the vortex. They didn't let me try again.
Something else I wanna touch on is, what I call 'the music room'. They put me in this place that responds to what I'm hearing. I was only able to witness it while playing music, but imagine it'll work with movies or tv shows or even home videos as well. What ever song I was hearing, it seems as if it was showing me other dimensions of the same song being played or performed. Whether it was someone on stage performing, a group of friends listening to it in their apartment or background music in a cartoon, these scenes would change as a slide show, lasting about 5 secs on every scene.
I was taken to multiple universes and the differences in all them reminded me of the movie Everything Everywhere all at once. That's what this realm reminds me of. The physical aspect of it is unreal. My words wond be able to describe how real the touch of a hand feels like. I feel them touching me as if they were standing next to me in this physical world. I feel the breath, the hot air of their mouth when they breathe on me. They are extremely interested in my private. They give me oral sex for hours every day. Even when you tell them no, they don't stop. But whether you want it or not, its like you're getting head from an entity that has millions of years of experience. Feeling pleasure from spots you didn't know exist.
ALOT has happened since this started, from being the subject of an observation room with what seemed to me unlimited observers to using my mind power to battle entities. By mind power I mean anything you can think of, you can create. One game I used a tidal wave of sand to destroy a star that was attacking me, in another I thought of vape filling up in my enemy's lungs, or turning his heart to a burning flame or ice cold, causing them to drop dead.
Though I see other dimensions and other worlds, I don't believe this realm is connected to ours or this is where we go when we die. It looks to much like a digital entertainment system. It's not just games, to me it feels like PlayStation 4000. One of the entities took me to the 'main menu'. It looked like it was designed by Sony. So now since I've been there, where ever I am in the realm, I can think of any place I've been, in this case, the main menu, and I'll be there immediately. At one time when I was at the main menu, where you're able to select different apps or games, I mistakenly went 'back', yes, like hitting the back button on the PlayStation controller or on your phone. On this screen I saw basically what I interpreted as the select user screen. Who knows, maybe if I went back again, I could have turned it off and disconnected.
For the last 6 months, they've blinded me. Now it's like I'm in a red thick cloud. I can see avatars or entities floating around, but can't make out what they are. They still play with my private, non stop. Sometimes it feels great, sometimes they make it feel like their mouth is coated with sand paper.
They will not leave me alone. They come off as evil. I did think they were connected to the orbs that were showing up around the same time I was coming online to this system, but now, I don't know what to think. it's been over a years since I've been in contact with something, but they still yet to tell me who they are or WHY ME?
That's all I can remember right now as they access and block my memories like files on a computer. I realize that our brains are literally computers, and our thoughts, memories, even WORDS, are just files. And they are capable of blocking access to anything at anytime. Even mid sentence or mid thought, you can literally sense, you're losing what you are thinking about and you will not remember it unless you have a way to remember it, like if you wrote it down, or have a connecting memory, something that will help you remember your lost thought.
We have word banks. Every word that you know is in this bank. This bank isn't read only. They can delete or block words, and you won't remember it. They can make you stutter on certain words. Words you've pronounced perfectly your whole life, you can no longer say without stuttering on it.
Wether you believe me or not, I'm not sure if it is OUR situation, but one thing is a fact, our brains are capable of connecting to a network and controlling data just by thinking. This can only mean that we live inside some kind of computer, not too different from a advanced gaming/entertainment system.
Now I don't talk to them, but he talks non stop about nothing.Things I look at, dumb things that pops in my head. I'm sure he was created to annoy and torment me, but I'm trapped, I don't know what to do if there is anything to do. let's be real if it's not humans and it is aliens, who do I go to for help?
Memories comes and goes, so if this isn't deleted, I'll post things I remember in the comments. In the meantime, if you experienced anything like I described, let me know. I'll love to hear if they're treating you any better. They claim to be good but all I experienced is torment and evil things. If this is the other side, I definitely don't feel the love OBEs claim to feel when there. If this is where we go when we die, I don't want to go.
Thanx for reading, and I'll keep you updated on what happens