WAY in over my head, does it hurt me more to drop hard/rigorous classes or to have a slightly lower gpa

after some bad judgement im now in ap calc bc and ap physics c (mechanics AND e&m). i’m going to be so honest i don’t know if i can make it to the end of the year. my adhd screening isnt even until the end of the month so theres not even a CHANCE of accommodations or help until then. my upper limit for not ending it before the end of the year is probably an 80-85 for both classes (MAYBE high 80s or low 90s if i REALLY REALLY push myself, which i dont wanna do). i do a lot better on tests than on homework just because of completion but i’m also starting to fall behind a bit in lessons now too. will it hurt more to drop them or try to maintain that lower gpa

why didnt i take easier classes? i had a 98.77 overall average last year, my teachers recommended me for the hard ones, my counselor recommended me for the hard ones, i felt like if i didn’t do them my mom would hate me, i felt like if i didn’t do them i wouldn’t get into anywhere i wanted

my physics teacher heavily discouraged me from dropping when i brought it up because he thinks i have it in me (he was my honors physics teacher last year) but i dont think thats true anymore

applying ED to swarthmore, 36 ACT, my ap lang teacher who tutors college essay writing over the summer said my essay was very nice, i do quizbowl and have a leadership position in my schools branch of german nat’l honor society