Why did I look up my cheating ex from highschool

Only to have extremely mixed feelings about him blowing up on YouTube just a few months ago.

Like how dare you find success decades after breaking my heart. (Obvious sarcasm is obvious but also fuck you dude).

Why would I do this. Just leave it alone. Nothing good can come from looking him up and reaching out and pretending he wasn't a cheating lying asshole who is now talking about being loyal and loving. Right? You ARE NOT LOYAL AND LOVING.

Rationally I know people can change. But the hurt inside me is all enraged again.

People who did catastrophic things to my life shouldn't get to have nice things. That's all.