Wife died, fiance is deployed, moved 4000 miles away from social supports, didn't get the job.

I'm pretty resilient, but, damn, how much can one guy take.

Wife, love of my life, died in my arms in 2022. I had a strong career, but just couldn't do it anymore, so moved to DC to work on cancer advocacy. Being from the west coast is like moving to a different country. I was stabbed in the back on the first job (common in DC) I now have a crappy one where I make barely enough. I met a great lady and now we are engaged, but now she deployed because of some dumb thing with Iran.

I had an amazing interview with what is my dream job, but just got notice they went with a different applicant.

Fiance is coming back soon, and people keep asking "you must be excited!" And I just answer in the affirmative, but I ain't. When my late wife came back she was so fucked up by her deployment she was never the same. On top of that fiance wants to start making babies right away, which by itself I have mixed feelings on due to being older, but I work too much and make too little right now for family planning.

Pepperoni, sausage, pineapple, jalapeno wood fired pizza at the local pub with a side of wheat beer.