I’m not in the right

I don’t like when my boyfriend cries. Especially when he sobs loudly. I can’t handle it, and honestly it does give me the ick.

I feel weird being the one who has to soothe him like a baby. I feel really bad that he’s upset but I just feel weird being like “there, there. Everything’s gonna be alright”

I think I feel uncomfortable doing that with a lot of people.

I feel bad because I sob like a baby and most the time he comforts me.

Sorry if I’m feeding into toxic masculinity or something. I never ever get mad at him or tell him to stop crying.

But idk what to do I kinda just wait for it to be over so I can talk to him normal

Edit: I’m sorry for triggering people especially men who have been through something similar and we’re treated poorly by their counterparts.

I just want to iterate that I don’t shame him, stop him, or ignore him. I’ve never told him he can’t cry. I just do not know how to comfort him, as it makes me feel weird to be the caregiver. My parents were terrible caregivers, so idk it doesn’t come natural to me.

Also wanted to re-iterate the title of this post, “I’m not in the right”

Sorry guys.