Messed up at contemplative eucharist today

SMH. my usual parish doesn't do contemplative services basically at all. but i love it and try to go when i get the chance. so i went elsehwere today, then we get to the eucharist. there's like 10 people here in this hulkingly massive church. i'm first in line. i've met the priest before. i use one hand to kinda guide the chalice, then he seems to basically assume i wanna grab it by both hands. it falls. i catch it before it hits the ground but there's a lot of wine on the ground and i yelled out "oh fXck". mid eucharist. clearly very audible to everyone within a miles distance. he finishes and sends us away

then when i finally can ask for a paper towel to clean up, as he's greeting others, he rushes for whatever is in reach. "this doesn't feel like a paper towel", i think. then i feel embroidary, turn it took check, and all the bread falls on the floor. it was the little napkin for the unused bread. peak cringe.