Struggling with Prayer

Things are really weighing on me lately. Work is very stressful. I have a 50 mile one hour commute. I leave the house at 7 and don’t get home until 6. Make dinner. Take care of kids. Do some chores. Get everything ready for the next day. I have a 13 month old who still breastfeeds and nurses to sleep at night. He wakes up every 3-4 hours still wanting to nurse. So I’m exhausted.

Isha isn’t until after 10:00pm. By the time it rolls around I’m so exhausted. I make my family pray immediately so I can try to go to bed. Usually we end up praying by 10:30 by the time everyone is ready. So I’m in bed by 11. Then waking up for fajr has been equally as hard. I’ll wake up right at fajr time and try to go back to sleep but it never works. And then I have to be up by 6 out of bed to get everything ready to go.

I’m struggling. I know Allah sbt’s intention for us isn’t hardship. But I’m at the point where things are hard and I’m so tired to deal with it that I just want to go to sleep and skip isha and fajr. Appreciate any words of encouragement or advice.