Trip Report: Memories Unlocked, Traumas Revisited, Childhood Pain Brought to Light by 200 ug + 20 mg 4-AcO-DMT + 2 grams of bud (Hashplant)

**Disclaimer**: I do not suggest mixing psychedelic substances without first having prior experience with the substances you are mixing.

Example: If you are mixing mushrooms and LSD, make sure you have at least some experience with both on their own, because mixing them can cause significantly stronger effects than either on their own.

**Preparations**: Waited 2 weeks after last trip for best results.

Made sure I had ample time alone to focus on myself and the experience.

Ceased eating and only consumed water for the 8 hours leading up to the trip.

Separated 2x100 microgram blotters, and weighed out 20 mg of 4-AcO-DMT, and put it into a capsule for easier swallowing.

In the hours leading up to my voyage, I prepared by cleaning the house, getting some trip snacks ready (just in case, sometimes I can eat, sometimes I can’t), setting up some comfy cushions and blankets, rolled a few grams of hashplant, and setting up some softer, coloured lighting. Also, set Planet Earth up on the TV for my viewing pleasure. Made sure my headphones were handy, and set up a music playlist. The remaining time I spent relaxing and meditating to center myself pre-flight.

**Pre-Flight Thoughts**: I was going into this experience knowing and accepting the fact that it was going to be intense visually and mentally. I wanted to go deep, and view my internal thoughts in front of me. As always, I had some pre-launch jitters, and anticipation. I won’t call it anxiety, because I wasn’t scared or nervous, I felt more excited than anything.

**Dose Time/Report**

T:+00:00 - I decided to dose my LSD slightly before the 4-AcO-DMT, so the two would kick in together, and provide a strong come up and peak. I set the 2 blotters under my tongue. No taste was noticed, except for the paper of course. I kept them under my tongue for as long as possible to allow for best absorption.

T:+00:40 - This is where I decided to take the 4-AcO-DMT. Originally I thought it was 20 minutes after taking the LSD, but after referring to my time notes it was actually around 40 minutes in. I still had the two blotters under my tongue at this point so I swallowed the 2 blotters and the capsule of 4-AcO-DMT. At this point I was also starting to get an energetic glow, along with the typical shivers up and down my spine that is the intro to every LSD trip I’ve ever had. It was a welcome feeling after not having taken LSD for over 10 years.

T:+01:00 - The come up is noticeably stronger now that the 4-AcO-DMT is starting to lift off along with the LSD kicking in stronger ever minute that goes by. Already I’m getting serious drifting and flowing with textures and heavy breathing on all surfaces. I’ve been watching Planet Earth up until this point, and am completely awestruck at the acuity enhancement along with flowing textures on animals furs/grass/mountain sides.

T:+01:30 - The body load and headspace is very intense at this point even though I’m actually only less than an hour into the come up. The visuals are increasing at a rapid pace, and my thoughts are going to fast for me to grasp. With all that said, I felt happier and more free than I have in a long time.

T:+02:00 - I take a moment to get comfortable, turn off the sound and lights, and close my eyes and just breathe. The CEV’s at this point are already astounding, with an explosion of colours racing towards me and surrounding and embracing me. While this is happening the colours burst into fractals and intricate geometry. While this is happening, in my minds eye I begin seeing images of my childhood, about certain times where I was hurt badly. It was upsetting to see these things in my minds eye, but it’s what I wanted. What was brought to light because of this, was the lasting trust issues, depression, social and general anxiety. It was was such a profound moment for me because I had never really understood the root causes for my issues, only that I’ve had them for as long as I can remember. It made me amazed about how trivial things like how adults and other kids treat you, could have affected people in such long lasting ways.

T:+02:30 - Now the bodyload/headspace/visuals were absolutely insane. I figured it was a good time to go smoke a .5 gram joint.

***At this point I started losing track of time and my notes stopped for a while***

T:+03:00(ish)- It was around this point that my awareness would forget that I wasn’t a part of my surroundings, and it felt like a conscious part of where I was sitting. Then I’d snap back out of it and be aware of where I was again. Then as quickly as I was back, I was gone again. It felt like I was slingshotting back and forth.

T:+04:30 - It was the midst of the peak now, I wasn’t going any higher for the moment. I smoked another joint which brought the headspace and visuals on stronger. Every surface in my house is flowing downwards, like those walls with glass and water that runs down inside them. Even my pets fur is drifting steadily towards the tail. The fur is shinmering with light, and his face keeps changing shapes, and expressions. The ceiling is no longer breathing, rather it is dripping downwards, and ballooning back up again, all the while mind bending geometry and fractal images explode out of anything I stare at for too long. Planet Earth is still playing, but the screen is just a rearranging, jumbled mess of colours and shifting images. I can’t make any sense of it so I turn it off, and grab my headphones. Over the previous 2.5 hours, I kept revisiting some of my most painful memories, from constant bullying from the time I was 5 by other kids, being tormented until I’d be in tears by aunts and uncles because I was never as smart as anyone due to ADHD, which my parents did nothing about because they wanted me to be “Normal”. Being picked on for my weight from the time I was 11 on until I lost most of the weight from heavy drug use. Losing friends to suicide. It terribly hurt to revisit these moments in history, but it had to be done. I needed to face these things, to overcome them. To conquer them. It was mentally exhausting... Time for some music.

T:+04:36 - Its only 6 minutes later, yet I’ve been stuck in comfortably numbs solos for an eternity.

T:+05:30 (+/- 00:15) - I spent an around an hour since my 6 minute music session sitting in the dark, with no sound, and my eyes closed... I think. It was hard to tell, with what I was experiencing, if my eyes were opened or closed due to the OEV’s and CEV’s being so pronounced and vivid. Things were starting to go on the decline though as they were noticably less intense compared to before.

T:+06:10 / +06:30 - Started having some uncomfortable vibes and thought loops. I became very obsessed with the current time, but as the compounds started releasing me from their embrace, so did the negative vibes steadily reduce in severity. Nothing serious, or even overwhelming. More of a minor inconvenience.

T:+08:00 - The sun is coming up now. The visuals are still very pretty, and my heads a lot clearer than it was earlier. I decided to go for a walk. I live near a large river, and the sun comes up over the water, so I headed towards the shore. I get there just in time to watch the sun rise while still having visuals. It is absolutely beautiful. It felt like I was absolutely one with the universe and a calm and peace washed over me like I’ve never felt before. As the sun was reborn in the morning sky, I too was reborn as a person who truly felt released from the clutches of my mental pain that I’ve held on to for the majority of my life. I knew it would always be with me, but I figured through the night that I’d try to continue to live my life by not letting these issues define me. The clouds were a pastel pink/purple in the morning light, and the ice was glittering like a billion stars from the rising sun. I just wish I had the words to do this scene justice for you, it’s something I will never forget.

T:+09:00 - Back home and in bed, extremely tired, but very satisfied with my trip. I have a few beer, which brought me back to normal enough to sleep.

**The Next Day**

Other than being physically tired, which is to be expected after a night of heavy tripping, and feeling a little slow in the mind, I feel amazing. I always do after a heavy trip, specially one where I go deep. I’ll definitely do this again, though not for a while. It was extremely intense on me, specially after smoking during the peak. I spent the rest of the following day in with my family, and built legos and coloured with my son. We watched some family movies, had snacks, and were all very happy to have such a nice relaxing day.

**Thoughts About The Combo**

While the effects were extremely strong, I didn’t find it overwhelming. It felt as if the heavier body load from the 4-AcO-DMT helped relax me enough to prevent any serious restlessness from the LSD. For any who are considering this combo, with the amount of cannabis to up the effects, approach with caution. If you have never mixed psychedelics of any kind before, have a trip sitter present, and make sure you have the perfect set and setting. Set and setting in these experiences can make or break the experience.

Always wait until your peak before smoking cannabis at all if you are not experienced with smoking while tripping, since smoking and tripping seem to intensify each other when done together. It can be a magnificent way to boost your trip, or it can make things overwhelming to those not expecting the drastic increase in potency.

I will answer any questions to the best of my ability, as time permits.

Stay Trippy, friends. Stay Trippy.