feel like I've been living everyone else's life instead of my own. Has anyone else felt this lost?

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I'm 22, recently graduated in engineering, and my graduation is in a few weeks. Instead of feeling excited, I just feel... lost.

When I was in high school, I wanted to become a lawyer. I loved subjects like social studies, enjoyed debating, and felt like that path suited my personality.

But my parents strongly encouraged me to choose science because they believed it offered better career opportunities. They told me that even if I didn't like it, I could always switch later.

So I listened.

I joined a science college that I never really wanted to attend. I adjusted, made a few friends, and just kept going.

Then came engineering. I had good grades, so everyone assumed engineering was the obvious next step. Again, I went with it. I kept telling myself, "It's okay. You can always do your master's in something you actually want."

Now I've completed engineering and I'm about to start a Master's in Computer Science.

The problem is... I don't even know if this is what I want.

I feel like I've spent years just going with the flow, making decisions based on what seemed practical or what others expected from me. I don't regret studying, but I honestly don't know who I am outside of following the next step.

My personal life hasn't helped either. I've grown up with a lot of family conflict, and I think it's affected the kind of relationships I end up in. I've had a few serious relationships and situationships, and I've realized I've almost never been single. Every time one connection ends, another somehow begins. That's another pattern I'm trying to break.

Career-wise, I'm just as confused.

I don't have a job yet. I'm about to begin my master's, but I don't know if I'm passionate about computer science or if I'm just continuing because I don't know what else to do.

The one thing I do know is that I don't like staying stagnant. Even if I'm confused, I keep moving forward because standing still scares me more than trying something new.

Has anyone else felt like they've spent years living according to other people's expectations and then suddenly realized they have no idea what they actually want?

How did you figure it out? Did you ever find your own path after feeling this lost?

I'd really appreciate hearing from people who've been in a similar situation. I could use some perspective right now.