PSA - Try Rook
If you are having trouble getting the hang of things, play a few runs as Rook.
Rook has
1. a "random" starting weapon
2. A free backpack
3. No stated goals
4. No team.
5. Can be invis to UESC
6. Self heals
7. Run is 10-15min tops
8. Made for low stakes loot spam
Helped me to really learn maps and learn to avoid players, even when they are close and taught me a lot about how to manage my resources and not take every NPC fight