Help me cope

8 months ago I found this unbelievable gem growing in with a regular monstera. I was worried when the new leaves came in they may not have variegation and the first one didn’t have much. But boy, the second one sure did (yes, it’s only grown 2 leaves). Today, when I was watering it, it fell off the counter and broke the new leaf off. It was still new leaf neon 😩😩 I’m just beside myself