My constitution has been broken

Post on my main cause fuck it all, actually. I'm tired of my life. People pleasing to get things done, working the better half of my life into a management position that isn't even worth my weight in salt, I'm tired of my parents who don't even treat me as a human being, and I'm tired of the general life I've subscribed to. I don't even want to stop existing it's just why do I have to hurt all the time?

I'm not suicidal and I love the idea of life, I just deplore the hand I've been dealt and if I was like 2% smarter and less masochist I'd be fine