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Can you relate?

I was just having a self loathing moment this morning. It’s 90 degrees and I was boiling in a my standard black loose fit black box T so I went inside and grabbed a tank top with all my fears and insecurities in tow. I put it on and felt 15 degrees cooler. Then did one last thing… a thing I should have skipped… because WHO CARES what people think, right? I do apparently….i checked in the mirror, My ‘problem areas’ … my massive underarms looking like an obese flying squirrel were staring straight back at me just flappin in the breeze… Then my gut, looking somehow more pronounced by simply removing sleeves… It’s crazy how fast I went from love to hate. No.. the story doesn’t end with me digging deep and finding the courage, finally winning over my insecurities. I ripped that tank off in a New York second. and returned to the comfort of being overheated because at least nobody else in public has to bear witness to the sight of my unsightly body. Yes, feeling that way makes me even more angry at myself but it’s the realest real right now. I’m 4 months in and 30 pounds down with 75 more to go to reach goal. Please share your success and if you remember this stage. 🤩