I keep having the same dream

I keep having the same dream that I don’t understand. But it’s happened enough that I figured I’d post about it. It may have different people in it, or be in a different environment, but the core is always the same. For reference, I’m AMAB.

I’m somewhere, wearing women’s clothing underneath boy clothes, and I’m moving through the world and meeting people and feeling very euphoric. And then the dream progresses and I realize that one of the women that I’ve met has a crush on me. The dream progresses again and I’m alone with the woman, and I get the sense intimate things are about to start happening. I hurriedly excuse myself and lock myself away somewhere (normally a bathroom or bedroom) and desperately try to take my underclothes off so I won’t be discovered, but suddenly I’m incredibly clumsy and it’s extremely difficult. The woman starts banging on the door and all I feel is shame, embarrassment, and fear— so much fear, like I’m about to be murdered and I’ve nowhere else to run. Finally, I get my feminine clothing off, and after stashing them somewhere I go back outside, ashamed and sad, but there’s been a mood shift between me and the woman and we end up going our separate ways after that.

After this, I wake up, or I wake up right after getting the clothes off feeling sad and ashamed and disgusting, though whether it’s from wearing the clothes or taking them off I’m not sure.