[Spoilers Changes] Anyone else Dread Rereading Changes?

So I often do rereads (or relistens as it were) of most of the books in the series. I usually skip the first 3 books just because, and I'll listen to the rest. ...But then I often skip Changes as well. This something I've been cognisant of doing, so a part of me is aware of the fact that I dread it.

On my current run, I wanted to go from book 1 all the way up again. When I got to Changes though, I veered off and decided to do Side Jobs instead, cuz why not? I realized about halfway through that I was avoiding Changes again. Does anyone else go through this on their rereads?