Can someone tell me if im wasting my time? (GB Aesthetic Action RPG)
INFO: Im trying to make a 4 color gameboy inspired action rpg, its not purist gameboy limitations but it is only 4 colors and the resolution is the same with the added widescreen aspect, I have done everything myself except some of the music isnt mine and there are still a very FEW placeholder graphics such as the little star character in the title screen and somethings like the water tiles are just frankestiend but 99% of it is purley done by me and if i were to ever release a game the few placeholders would obviously be swapped out. and keep in mind my computer sucks so using the recording software makes it all choppy. and its only recording in 30fps
DUMB PERSONAL INFO:
>Long story short, Ive been in love with game design/development since I could use a computer, I remember using rm2k or rm99 back in the day as well as gamemaker 5 I think, was my earliest one. I was diagnosed with adhd late in life and that atleast in my opinion has hindered me from really every diving to deep into the things I really like to do, and one day when my girlfriends at the time left me I was in a really shitty place and desiced I needed to start working towards what I love doing, and proceeded tgo do that. That was about 2 years ago and I have never felt more fulfillment in my entire life. For thew last 2 years Ive been on cloud 9, now normally in life I have been extremely hung up on ego and caring about what i look like and caring about what other people think of me, and the relationship I was in was pretty toxic, but I really felt lkke my life changed when I started working on my game nonstop all day even with a job that I worked at for 50 hours a week. (factory work). And well, this is all very rushed and not put together well, pretty recently I got laid off and, I moved to colorado a few years ago with plans to have my girlfriend move with me and wed jsut get away from our boring lives i( she never came) and i have spent the last 3 years or so in a state thousands of miles away from everyone i know and the only reason i stayed was because of the job, but ever since i got laid off, this thing that has brought be such joy over the last 2 years now makes me feel so horrible, I feel like i have no right to be attempting this and there is no chance Ill ever make it in this field, and to be honest i feel really hopeless. I have very VERY half assedly put together a video (im literally walking out the door to start me 2000 mile drive back to florida) so there is so SO much missing like a bunh of cool bosses and tehre is no structure, like I put these levels together just for the purpose of the video, i have mainly been working on the mechanics and graphical style and wanted every system and idea fleshed out completely before i started builiding thew world. I do have the story and everything pretty fleshed out since ive been working an a 4 color gameboy style action rpg and a yougn boy with white spikey hair since i first ever tried making games. this is all messy and I could probably put all this together better but im using my last ounce of motivation to type this out and post this evry half assed video. There re so many cool things That i just would need more time in my code to set up for a video or just dont have the time to explain, like all the enemies have timidness and bravery levels so they can either run away or defend their friends if you are attacking them, as well as going to getfood when they are low on health, and loads of subtle things like that. If i wasnt fired and had more time to put something together I could show alot more but I feel like people would atleast be able to tell if im onto something or even have any potential by the video and pictures. So yeah just looking for validation really. if it sucks be honest with me, Ilm about to head out so I wont be replying to often right away if anyone does end up caring, but yeah. Havent really showed anyone but like my dad in the whole 2 years and really just feel like shit
Video:
https://youtu.be/p80mxc7sI2I
and heres an old old video of one of the first iterations
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HOEOpT-yDO4
This is one of the cool bosses i have in game but dont have the code set up properly to take a video of it at the moment, so here is a size comparison of the boss and the main character so you can atleast see what im trying to get at.
https://i.imgur.com/tCEX95S.png