Depression is relapsing

Sorry for the dramatic name, I'm bad at this. Don't really know how to explain it well, but I've been depressed for a few years, and it had been going better and better with time but for no apparent reason progress just went poof.

And it's making me so mad because a lot of things are going okay for me right now, I'm finally studying something I love, and stuff like that. And yet I can't help but feel so god damn empty.

Or mad. Or both.

Don't really have friends to talk with, I'm class rep and I get on with everyone, but as soon as I leave a social setting I just shutdown.

Can't afford therapy, and there aren't any available free services near me.

I guess I'm open to anything, whether it's advice, someone to talk to, or if you want someone to bitch about how life is, I'm right here.

And for more info, I'm a game design student, I love 70's music, and I was a theater kid so books, movies, nerd shit you name it. I love nature and cooking too !

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Thank you for reading through this.

Eli