I don’t think I’m going to make it.

I’m 48 M. I’ve been having problems with insomnia since 2023. It got really bad in 2024. I went seven whole days without any sleep but the doctors couldn’t do anything so I put myself in a 5150 while there I saw psychiatrist and they gave me two Klonopin to go to sleep it worked but since then every night has been a battle my social life has diminished. I’ve been taking 1 mg of Klonopin with 400 mg of gabapentin. I would get six hours of sleep which I was fine with but every now and then I will get an episode that lasted two days fast-forward to four days ago and it seems the pills are not working and I get about an hour of sleep. It’s like my nervous system wakes me up. I fiight the suicidal thoughts every day. I honestly don’t know what to do. I sent a letter to my psychiatrist today letting her know, but I feel like she’s just gonna put me on more pills. I don’t wanna die. I have a lot to live for I have many people that will be hurt, but I’m just so tired of suffering.