How to give up on finding love and to kill my sex drive?

I'm am a (25m) and a Virgin never kiss a girl never had a girlfriend never went out on a date and never had any women being attracted to me I'm not looking advice such as going to gym getting a haircut etc. I tried it all except therapy because that's to expensive and they can't fix me being ugly I am ugly threw and threw I am just looking for way by any means to help me give up and the hope and feeling that i will ever find love and to possibly kill my sex drive entirely if I can