Fuck

Well, shit hit the fan today. One of my friends told my girlfriend I was using today and she left me, my mom randomly drug tested me (I borrow one of my parents cars and they are paying for my college so I am supposed to live by their rules) and of course failed and if I fail one more time, shes taking my car and stopping paying for my college (both of which I understand and dont blame them for) which means I have to get clean which will be a bitch both on the physical dependance side and because I use to help with horrible depression and anxiety (made worse by drowning in school work, girlfriend leaving and the isolation Ive brought on myself by falling into myself and my using) and to help curb my OCD.

God Im going to miss dope so much. One last monster shot for the road.