i cant play finger control and im crashing out

the map which i have probably spent the most time in throughout my osu playtime starting from day 1 is the hyper diff on Out of Place. It's my favorite song from this game by far and one of the all time hits in my playlist. It's a genuine banger and I listen to it basically every day.

I, however, cannot play the fucking map. I have FCed maps with higher star rating, gotten higher acc too, but on this specific map I just cannot get above 91%. Am I just doomed to never be able to play this stuff???

I love jazz and I love weird rhythms but I just can't get any kind of accuracy on these maps despite them being lower SR than what I usually play and despite them taking the majority of my playtime. I'm not an aimslop farmer, I spend most of my time on these kinds of jazzy maps but it all feels in vain when I can't get any meaningful score on any of them after hours of play. On any other skillset I play maps with 4-4.6 sr but for the maps that I actually wanna play I'm basically hardstuck on 3.6\*