How Many Day 1s?

I know it’s not helpful to compare. I guess I’m just looking to hear that somebody out there has been successful in becoming alcohol free after MANY Day 1s? I’m on yet another. I’ve had countless Day 1s over the years. I’m trying to reframe and be grateful to be trying again, but in truth I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll never be able to truly do it. Im scared I’ll get a week, a month, a few months, and fall back into it. Again and again. Because that’s been my experience. I hate it so much. I just want it to be over.