Cutting down led me to wanting to quitt completely
Hey everybody, since I am new, I thought I'd share how I got here. Alcohol is a factor in my life as long I can remember. My father was a drinker (he stopped 2 years ago after being diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver), his father died from cirrhosis when I was 8yo. Later I found out my Grandmother on my mother's side was a heavy alcoholic too, but got sober when I was very little. Myself, I always enjoyed to drink, especially beer. I drank at parties, with friends, and later on, it became a daily habit. I could always hold my liquor pretty well and never got sleepy or tired from drinking, like most people do. Up until about a year or so, I'd say I had on average 4 beers a night, usually more on the weekend. Last year I was going through an awful breakup and decided to start to work out and cut back and stop drinking daily. It worked really well, and was surprisingly easy. I was relieved, in part because, to me, that ment I did not had to stop completely, since I obviously wasn't an alcoholic. My bloodwork was really good too, so there was no concernable damage from to my unhealthy drinking habit. So, for about a year now, I drank very rarely and more and more I realized, how much it actually sucks to drink. Like, I couldn't see it before, because I was more or less drinking constantly, I quite literally lacked the clarity to see it. I can't stomach the increasingly worse hangovers after excessive drinking sessions anymore, I feel so sick and depressed for days, it is just not worth the fun of being drunk anymore. So in the last 8 month or so, I would not go on benders anymore, and now I feel like, what's even the point? Last time I drank was at a bachelor's party (I was the best man) and I simply did, because I didn't want to be the only one that didn't drink. I did not enjoy it one bit. So I thought to myself, you know, this is a pretty stupid reason. So that is where I am now. The more I think about it, the more reasons to stop I come up with, and the more I question if there is any upside to "still being able to drink a few glasses, now and then". I think I'm really done, for the first time in my life, it doesn't feel like I would lose anything worth keeping.