69 days... noice but depressed

Here's to 69 daye. Can I get a noice.

But I'm feeling depressed.

I don't miss drinking, nor do I miss hanging at bars and being hung over. I miss none of it.

But even though I have filled the void with new activities and I am having fun, I am still meh.

I guess I'm missing not always being on guard. Missing not knowing what kind of people I will meet.

I miss the spontaneous me.