Halloween reflection!! :)

Over 4 months sober (although this isn't my first go around), and this is my first Halloween sober / without attending any type of party or hosting one. If you've struggled with alcohol abuse, I'm sure you know how easy it is to make any given day, let alone a holiday, an excuse to get absolutely messed up. This Halloween was a big deal for me.

I previously couldn't imagine drinking on Halloween, and now I can't even fathom how I could want that. Comparing myself to last Halloween, I was a total mess. This year, I didn't have to wake up late and arrive an hour late to work, driving to work still half drunk and disoriented. I didn't wake up trying to piece together what I had done. I didn't have to work hungover, nor did I have to cry my eyes out at work about the choices I've been making and how much my life is spiraling. I didn't begin a slow descent / spiral for the holidays.

I woke up feeling well rested but allowed myself to sleep in more than I normally would, did my meditation, and went to work. I was able to not only function at work, but do my best. I didn't have to regret sitting at home, painting pumpkins, and eating candy/pizza by myself. I didn't question any of my choices. Instead of starting a downward spiral, I'm just elevating my progress even further, getting a positive end to October and start to the month.

We can do this over the holidays. The holidays can have a new meaning for us. You don't have to drink to enjoy the holidays. Maybe it won't be the same, but it will be better :)