Drank everyday for 25 years

I have always seem to have a rocky relationship with my mental health. Ever since being a teenager I have suffered bouts of depression and anxiety. This led to quite a lot of substance misuse in my teenage years which then just became a daily occurrence into my 20,30s. Weed, then pills, then cocaine sometimes all together but ALWAYS alcohol. I never saw the danger in the booze. Despite this I have forged a successful career in a highly competitive industry. But the truth is I very rarely feel happy. This year was interesting, after a particularly stressful period at work I was drinking more than ever and taking benzodiazepines to curb my anxiety. My father and brother had in intervention as such as clearly was losing my mind. I got done therapy and help and then diagnosed with ADHD just before last Xmas. This has explained a lot. I’ve pretty much kicked the class A drugs but this year first time stopped drinking Alcohol. And I felt like a different person. My mind was calm for the first time in my life. No voices, no anxieties. And lots of energy and positivity. But I found people were struggling with the new more hyperactive version of me. Not used to it I guess. My drinking had been subduing my ADHD tenancies. Slowly I’ve got back into daily drinking and really want to stop it. It’s so darn difficult but I’m determined to get a grip on this in 2025 once and for all as I’ve had enough of feeling low all the time. I will be using this forum for support. Wish me luck