No alcohol, no more nicotine vape, but now I’m just dealing with episodes of binge eating

I’ve been frustrated with myself recently. I’m really proud that I’ve been able to tackle these two habits (drinking and smoking vapes), but it honestly feels like once I cover up these two leaks in my ship another pops up. Now I’m finding myself pigging out on food, and I hate it. It’s like I need a dopamine hit somehow, some way.

I eat healthy most of the time, and I’ll be racking up days of hitting my calorie goals just to completely sabotage it all standing at the pantry door on a random midnight. Eating chips and shit. I’ve done plenty of successful “weight loss cuts” in the past and fitness is a big part of my life, but I can’t get anything to stick right now.

I’m starting to have thoughts like “why the hell can’t I just chill out!?”. It’s like I get a rush out of self-sabotaging behavior. I’m starting to consider doing some more dopamine fasting in my life to see if that sets me straight..maybe ditch the mindless scrolling and get outside more. Ugh just thought I’d share, I feel like I’m recalibrating and it is just not as smooth as I’d hoped it would be.