Day 5, and stress won't make me pick up

My partner and I have been disagreeing/awkward/fighting all day, when I had been fantasizing that it would be a nice smooth late breakfast and coffee vibe. I had fantasized that it would set me up for success to get into the right mindset for some extremely challenging creative work I need to do this weekend.

If I weren't truly committed to sobriety this time, it would've been perfectly normal for me to use "it's 2pm and I'm stressed because we're fighting" as an excuse to pour a "Saturday brunch" drink. No question. But I'm not going to.

My cravings last night were REALLY rough when they peaked on Friday night, but I didn't drink and I'm proud of that.

I had hoped my partner would cut me some slack, but they were throwing me resentful body language and tone of voice as soon as I woke up. Some fantasy of a day, I guess.

I've been extremely excited about this creative project and the considerable work I've already invested into it would be heartbreaking to lose.

There's a chance we might just cancel the whole thing. I would be devastated. But I still won't drink.