Is today a good day to start drinking again?

Back in the day, I tried so many times to quit, and failed. I was sober for a few days or weeks, then went back. I joined r/stopdrinking back in 2011, when there were just over 5,000 members. I would scroll with the mouse in one hand, and a drink in the other.

I was having some health issues, and I was recommended to join AA, so I did back in December 2012. I was sober for 60 days, and then relapsed.

In April 2013, all I wanted was to break my sober streak of 60 days. I just wanted to hit 61 days. When I did, I decided to go for 100 days. When I hit 100, I set the target of 150 days. Later, I committed to 100 days at a time.

I've posted several times at the rollover of hundreds of days, and committing not to drink with you guys for another hundred days. Yesterday was 4500 days, and IWNDWYT for another 100 days.

Is today a good day to start drinking again? Hell, no. I am not going back to where I was, and I know, I *absolutely know* that I can't moderate or control my drinking. I have stability, predictability, and self-esteem and I am not sacrificing that for a glass of poison.

Any of you fellow Sobernauts that are thinking about going back, please don't. Keep going in sobriety and I guarantee that your new life will be so much better than your drunk life.

If you do trip up, remember that recovery isn't a battle, it's a war, and in a war, you win some battles, and your lose some. But the only way top lose the war is to stop fighting. Keep going.

I was right where you are. So much chaos. So much kicking my own ass over my mistakes. So much regret and remorse. So much anxiety and anguish.

My sober life is a much better life, so please, join me. Keep going, and transform yourself into the supreme and exquisite person you are meant to become.

I will not drink with you for another 100 days.