In the ER for detox (again)

Hi all.

Just looking for some support and community. I’m in the ER for withdrawal for the second time in 2-3 months. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. I had a likely seizure about 2 months ago, did almost a month sober, then threw it all away.

I went right back to my old amount (2+ pints of vodka a day). Right back to my old ways (sleeping all day, short with partner, accidentally breaking things, not holding up responsibilities).

At this point, I don’t know what it will take for me to stop. I loved my days sober. I let the cravings win though instead of reaching out for help.

I’m probably going to lose my amazing boyfriend, my place to live, I’ve already lost all my money, jobs, countless years and time with family.