2 yrs plus

Sometimes I start to think about how nice evenings by a fire with beer are, and then I think about how ashamed I would be if I drank again and how sad my mom would be. And then I think about what a crappy and external reason for not drinking And how if I was a better person, my motivation would be interior And not have to do with avoiding the shame.

And then I think, good enough. Any reason is good enough. So today I'm not going to drink for this reason and it will be good enough.