My family crashed out on me despite being the sober one.

I'm actually not sure what to do anymore. We had a Thanksgiving together but when it came to conversations that I had with them sober it was like everyone was snapping at me.

My niece and nephew know what I mean but after today I don't think I will ever want to go out of my way to enjoy a holiday with my close family. After being honest with them... albeit politically they got genuinely aggressive and violent with me. People who didn't hear the conversation came up to me taking out their aggression saying that I'm just upset because I was drinking.

Everyone was drinking but me! But they don't believe me.

I dont think I'll ever go to another close family event. I don't think I've ever been so hurt in my life.

At the end of the night before leaving they just snapped at me. Telling me I was drinking and that I shouldn't get so upset.

I'm being so gaslit. It just sucks when my closest family is blaming me when they're the drunk ones and my own damn niece and nephew has to be the sane one to check in on me towards the end of the night.

I cried the whole ride home.

I used to drink but it has never been an issue to me until I saw it from my own family. I don't think I'll ever spend another holiday with them again.

Ever since my divorce I don't think I've ever been so lonely.