Messed up my dry January tonight

Have no idea what happened, but I got the wild urge to drink a clubtail, grabbed one of those then proceeded to drink a couple lower abv beers over the course of the night. Now I have a raging headache and for the most part didn't even feel like I enjoyed the "buzz" I got, in fact after not drinking this whole month it just felt kind of gross feeling and like I was more disoriented than feeling good. Definitely feeling like I'll have cravings for alcohol again tomorrow but kind of thinking like, I don't really think I enjoyed that after the peace I've had staying away from it all month. Not sure why I'm posting this just wanted to vent/share. In a way I'm glad I didn't super enjoy the feeling of it, if anything it makes me want to stay sober, I definitely am not particularly enjoying just being in bed with a headache and a feeling of not liking the decision I made tonight, going to start over again tomorrow and hopefully retain the good vibes I've had the last couple weeks staying off of it. It's kind of crazy to me that I don't think I got any of the good feelings I was kind of feeling like I was missing that I thought I used to get from alcohol, makes me wonder a lot about why it doesn't feel good after I'm used to being sober for a bit.