6 months sober today! Talk to me…

Woo hoo! Yay! Celebrations!

Ok, now let me tell you where I find myself at this stage of my journey. I’m feeling “weak” is the word I’m going to use. I’m finding myself thinking and using words like “trauma”, “triggered”, “emotional bandwidth”. I think it’s because I’m trying to do the work of healing and trying to overcome the trauma (there it is again) that drove me to drink in the first place. I feel like I’m becoming a person I used to find irritating and would roll my eyes at.

So idk friends is this relatable? Is there always something to feel bad about? Is it just me, destined to never be satisfied? I wanted this for so long, I know I’m better and it’s good but I’m finding it difficult to connect to the pride and joy I expected.