Drinking and depression

Been a lurker here for a while. First off I want to say how amazed I am by all of you. The need and fight to be better by quitting. I’m five days in. I’ve always suffered from depression. I think I drink to feel happy or feel something different. I’ve always been the fun girl. Always with wine in hand. I could drink a bottle of night no problem. But, I’m 42 now with a four year old and need an identity shift. Drinking always makes me feel like absolute crap for days after. I hate myself, the self loathing and negativity are just too much. For those who stopped? Did you see a change in your mood and happiness? Thank you!