Another day, another win

Ever since trying a drink again after a dry month, I hadn’t thought too much about drinking or not. I don’t like it anymore. I don’t see it as stress relief or a way to wind down.

But man these last couple days it’s come back with a vengeance. I know better, but I just wanted a beer. I didn’t want to get drunk, just wanted to drink. Yesterday I went to bed early and got past it. Today I didn’t. I had a reason to go to Walmart and asked myself before I left: Why do you want to drink? I didn’t have a reason, but I was gonna go down the aisle anyway.

When I got there I had a whole life flash moment when I got to the aisle. I was looking at the tall boys and after a few seconds of internal debate, grabbed a 6 pack of NA Blue Moon. I didn’t even need to show my ID. It felt good. I gave in to the craving, but didn’t get any actual alcohol.

I should be coming up on two months. I haven’t kept track as much now that I’m not suffering like I was in the first few weeks. I will drink some NA with you tonight 😁