Crazy scary how quickly things can escalate out of control.

I am a recovering drug addict that completely destroyed my life through drugs. It took me a long time to rebuild my life, and there are some things that will never be the same due to the damage caused through my addiction. I didn’t drink for years but recently started drinking, and doing so pretty excessively. I have a really high tolerance to everything so I wasn’t falling down blackout drunk, but I could consume a massive amount for 120 lb woman. Well I’ve been having a lot of health issues (which led me to drink even more) and was seen by a doctor today. I’m waiting on the test results, but he said my liver is very swollen & he’s concerned about other organs like my pancreas. Needless to say, I am done! I just wish that the other negative consequences had gotten through to me before this health scare. I’m still not out of the woods and feel like absolute shit (no major withdrawal though) but I feel like I went through hell for years only to torture myself again. Please be mindful of the damage happening to your body. This wasn’t decades of drinking that messed me up this bad, just off & on excessively for a little over a year. Glad there’s spaces like this for support. 💙