A new chapter in my life

I got a DWI a little more than a year ago. It didn't ruin my life. That's only because I was lucky. I had friends in high places, and had made a good enough name for myself that I was able to keep a job. It wasn't the job I wanted, but I still had a chance to get back the job I loved. It wasn't ideal, but if I persevered with this shitty job I would go back to doing what I loved.

Well this past weekend I fucked up again. I was with friends that I thought I could trust to not let me drive. I can't blame them though. I should have never had to put them in that position in the first place.

So these past few days, while I've been scrambling to get a lawyer and other expensive stuff, I've been taking a long hard look at what led me to this shittiest of moments. I realized that I was pretty depressed with where I work, and that was part of the reason for my continued drinking when I knew my dream job was on the line. So I made a hard choice. I have to move on, and think of my immediate well being. I can't keep hoping to get my dream job back years down the line if it means that I'll destroy myself in the mean time.

So today I've used up the last of my favors owed to me, to find a new job. It's similar enough to my old job that I think I'll be happy there. It's a long shot, considering my history, but hopefully, with enough support from my old bosses, they'll take a chance on me. It's a change in companies, away from friends, and I have to start at the bottom again. Maybe that's what I need, a change in environment. I think this is enough of a kick in the ass to keep me sober. I'm scared, but hopefully it's a change for the better.