I haven't had a drink in two years.

I used to surf this sub incessantly. Today marks two years. Thanks for all the support, my doods. I think I'll keep it going and not drink with you guys today. ;-)

EDIT: I guess I should make use of this post besides lazily patting myself on the back. So I used to be a liter-a-day or more type drinker. At the end of my boozing career, I could barely get out of bed, I weighed 264 lbs, I lost literally everything in my life. My count stands at: 12+ detox stays, 5 rehab stays, 3 psych ward visits, 2 suicide attempts and a partridge in a pear tree. I was bad.

I woke up after a 4 day black out covered in every bodily fluid possible, with no justification and realized I had had enough. I went to rehab for my final time. I then stayed in a sober house. I attended AA, despite being an atheist and for me it worked out being a temporary support group that I ended up fizzling out of after about 18 months. I believe heavily in eastern philosophies and their application in daily life. I try to keep my side of the street clean. I keep a schedule. I tell my family I love them.

I’m not a conventional ex-drinker. I’m an Atheist. I don’t buy into any of the higher power stuff. I use cannabis both recreationally and therapeutically. I didn’t for the first year, out of hesitation and to clear my head. I neither recommend nor discourage this, and I understand the stigma that goes with it, but I’m just being honest about my journey.

I learned to love myself and my life. It’s not perfect. I’m not rich, I’m not driving a Ferrari. But I have some dogs. So you know, I got that going for me.

EDIT 2: someone reminded me in the comments, Podcasts! I listened to countless podcasts; people sharing their addiction stories, the Joe and Charlie tapes, Refuge Recovery Podcast, Secular Buddhism, you name it. Big help.