Feeling REALLY sorry for myself and going to bar bingo. Being social sucks.

I'm not going to drink. But I'm not sure I will be very good company. Usually around the one week mark is when I start to feel feeeeeelings again and if I hadn't promised my sister I'd go with her I would be in bed right now.

I'd usually still be smoking pot, but I'm not doing that either. If I have any feelings stronger than my baseline - happy or sad- I'll probably burst into tears.

I'm actually hoping I DONT win bingo because It could be a damn mess. I'm just venting.