One Month!

I made it!! I can't believe I actually did it. The longest length of being sober in the past 18 years of me drinking! This process has been amazing. I'm so proud of myself, and it's been both incredibly hard (for all the reasons you can guess) and easy because it had to be done and I wouldn't allow any other option for myself. This is the start of a new me. I feel healthier- My body doesn't hurt as much, my skin is glowing, I've lost weight. I can't wait to see what more time will bring.

I actually have energy- I work a lot so I just assumed exhaustion was how it went. But not drinking has made me realize passing out does not equal good sleep, and that there are SO many hours in the day when you're not in a booze haze.

A few downsides... My BF and I are fighting constantly. He is still drinking heavily and I can't hold a conversation with him. We've been together 10+ years and have become alcoholics together. He just moved in to my place a little over a year ago so with us being together constantly and me not drinking I'm seeing how bad his habit really is. He's defensive and resistant to change. I'm not really sure what to do, or what will happen and that is very scary. But, I want to end on a positive note! Not knowing what the future will bring is scary, but I've started to prove to myself that I actually do have willpower, I am strong, and I don't have to be miserable in life. I'm working to make it better and I deserve it. We all do!

**IWNDWYT!!**