Is it bad that I need to post to check my days?

I mean I could do the math and I am by no means far in this journey but it has become the new normal. I don't really crave it per say. I notice it when I'm at the corner store. I might make a comment under my breath. Some nice old lady caught me sticking my tongue out at the beer isle the other day. I just shook my head and said "Not today" she laughed and told me "Good job". I really notice when my family has had some drinks. I thought my brother was in the bag on Halloween until I realized he had only had a beer when my father in law cracked one and they smelled the same. It made me realize that there is no way I didn't reek like an empty beer can daily. All those times getting haircuts or shopping half drunk, folks had to know. Kinda of sad but I don't dwell on it. I am on a low dose Xanax (.25) I split daily. I wonder if my apathy is aided by that or if this is a benefit of sobriety. I'm thinking of stopping the Xanax. I got the script when I was having debilitating panic attacks that I now think were withdrawals with a touch of PTSD. I had my first Marine Corps Birthday and Veterans day without a drink since I enlisted over 15 years ago. I spent the days with my kids. Okay enough rambling IWNDWYT.