150 Days

150 days. I turn 40 tomorrow. I am pretty sure that is the longest stretch without a drop in 25 years (including a military deployment that at some point family sent airplane bottles in resealed Pop Tart boxes). It feels good. I have a new baby in the house and am so glad I'm sober for him and his older siblings. His 2 1/2 year old sister has hit a sleep regression where she wakes up in her bed and wants to go back to sleep in the chair. I am thankful I can be there for her and not passed out at the basement bar downstairs with a movie on. I know my wife appreciates it. The new baby is chill and sleeps 4 hours at a time but mommy's recovery has been harder this go around. The basement bar has been renamed the Dorkroom and Lounge. It's filled with all my favorite gaming and toy things instead of booze related stuff. I went all out with Christmas decorations and it's quite the cozy nook and a good place to take the older kids to give the newborn and my wife a break. I get a little frazzled, but I remind myself to be present and enjoy the moments with my kids. I'll take those over the bottle any day. I fully appreciate how much my wife had supported our little family now. I can't believe I used to disappear daily to drink in the basement. All the extra time has led to a complete reorganization of the household. I love going into the back of the basement and I know where everything is. What used to be choas is now order and I love it. There is snow setting in today through tomorrow. I'm thinking we will all be cozy and snowed in tomorrow. A blessed way to turn 40. I still feel like a kid.