I feel like I’m planning my relapse.

Day 13 and I’ve got all the excuses ready. Already convinced myself that it’s totally fine to relapse, can always go back to sober the next day.

Wtf. I don’t feel strong enough to state to the world I’m sober so while I have to attend a shit load of award events in the next two weeks for the business I’m in, I can give myself an out and have a drink should I want.

AAAAAACK I wish I had a contingent of people I knew were sober and we could just hang out at all the same events and traverse this shit together!