Fighting the urges hard today

I've had a real solid shitty months. I've managed to get through them all without many cravings, but today they are there HARD as I thought to myself "I'm restless, depressed and miserable. I could go get some wine and spend the day in blissful oblivion!" And spent a full hour talking to myself in my head about how I don't really have a drinking problem, the weekend just isn't the same without wine time, I've been missing out on so much being sober! On and on. If I go get that wine, I'll drink every drop until I pass out. I'll waste the rest of my weekend drinking, and won't sleep because I'll be an anxious, sweaty guilt ridden mess of shit, I won't eat, I won't get up for yoga tomorrow, and I'll probably pick a fight with my husband and be way more unhappy. And I'll probably binge like that for a month or more, tunneling right back to where I was. I just felt like getting this out would help me stay focused. So I don't know what the rest of today holds, or if I'll be able to push aside my problems or think them through enough to enjoy my weekend. But I do know IWNDWYT.