I broke a promise to myself by and while drinking.

I had told myself that my girlfriend would never see me drunk, yesterday she did. It has been an uphill battle winning her trust, but I finally had, I am worried that I ruined that last night. We are going to talk this afternoon, I'm scared as hell of what will happen, but know that I have earned whatever is coming to me. This woman is wonderful for me, for years I had told myself that a signicant other was the only thing I was missing and that it would some how keep me from drinking. It didn't.

I started drinking again in March with the pandemic. I told myself it was a one-time thing, since then I have had a series of "one more time"s I pray that it wasn't one more time too many. I'm going to look into medication for my alcoholism tomorrow, the hard part is knowing that what may happen this afternoon, I cannot drink tonight.

Time to reset my flair and do this right way. Good luck to everyone out there.