So I hope I'm about at the end.

I'm tired of being drunk every day to get through the day. I'm tired of having hobbies I just vaguely remember enjoying. I hate remembering friends that I have no excuse for not being friends with anymore. I'm tired of disappointing one of the few fuckin people I actually care about I'm tired of pretending drinking can be a personality trait of mine that people like.

I don't know if if this is stupid but Im gonna post my day by day feelings. I don't care if any one reads it, let it die in new, but I think it would be good for me right now.