reflections at one month sober

day 30 .first few weeks were pink cloud, the days passed with ease and i seemed to be accessing stores of energy reserves i had no idea were hidden inside me. stayed on track during the days, felt connected with nature, engaged with others, etc.

.last ten days or so i've noticed a shift. feels like exhaustion is setting in. sense of time is off. unable to fall asleep till wee hours and waking up is difficult. routines feel less satisfying.

.90 in 90 still going strong. all zoom meetings, have yet to attend in person. local home group is virtual due to pandemic health measures. also attend two other meetings regularly and drop in to a few others here and there. look forward to meetings everyday.

.keeping a journal of what's helping, meeting sayings, nuggets from others experience, strength and hope, etc. for the purposes of relapse prevention and also to document this time that feels so raw and brand new.

.drinking lots of iced tea, snacking all the time. actually savouring meals... tastes buds seem to be changing. digestion continues to improve.

.the obsession is lifted, thank you hp. craving thoughts pop up seldomly.

.no drinking dreams yet.

.need to get a sponsor to start the steps with. reading the big book. service so far is reading in meetings. have lots of numbers, should start picking up the phone more.

.reading all kinds of different books - quit lit, fiction, lots of random non fiction, even old books from school aged years.

.revisiting shows and music i used to love but haven't made time for in a long time.

.feels easier to be honest in general.

.every single night head hitting the pillow sober, i feel genuinely grateful. then as i wake up still sober i feel that precious gratitude all over again.

.hangout in this sub throughout the day and also find the i am sober app helpful.

i'll take another 24 and iwndwyt!