3months sober, feeling scared and alone

These past two days, for some reason, have been almost unbearable. It's not so much that I want to drink, I've just felt so alone. I have a great group of sober friends and I have all sorts of other people's phone numbers, but I've been having such a hard time approaching people and making new friends.

I'm 23years old and living in a halfway house in a town where almost everybody is in recovery. I drank away 5.5months of sobriety back in January and, this time, things aren't nearly as easy as they were before. I knew everybody before. Now I feel like I don't know anybody - and it isn't true, but it's the way I feel.

I'm too scared to approach people on the beach or even look for a job. I've rarely ever been rejected, but I'm afraid I might be. I'm tall, in good shape, handsome, educated, and a nice guy. I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin; confident, the way I felt before.

When I went out, I went and royally fucked myself. I lost my bike, my cell phone, spent all of my money, lost a bag of clothes, slept on the beach a few times, woke up in the hospital without knowing how I got there, and then, somehow, managed to make it back to my mom's house, without any money, and continue drinking for a few weeks. We're resourceful people, alcoholics, and we can make mountains out of molehills.

This shouldn't be so hard, but I haven't been comfortable in a long while. I haven't felt this loneliness since I detoxed in a motel room three months ago. It's scary, but I haven't had a drink. I remind myself that it's the worst possible idea and, as bad as I feel now, drinking will make it worse.