1 hour? Probably? TW TMI

I hope to fucking god this is my all time low dude. The first time alcohol almost killed me was just over 10 years now. And so what? I have to humiliate myself time and time again? I still haven’t learned???

I’m going to be way too graphic because I hope to god my future self can read this and remember how I feel. I’ve always thought this would work but idk. I don’t think it’s happened quite this way before. So.

Proceed reading with caution.

I woke up on the … floor??? Okay. Not sure why or how. Went to sit up/ stand yp, immediately feeling bad and knowing I was probably needing to puke. No time!!! Puking immediately.

Puked on a blanket on my bedroom floor, immediately soaking thru to the carpet. Of course.

Tried to stand, puked more. Disgusting. Puked on my way to the bathroom.

Puked in the toilet. Thought I was done, ended up getting close to the door to leave and had to continue puking in the sink.

Cool cool cool cool amazing . Even got some puke in my hair bc I had no time between waking up and vomiting. Amazing. Cute.

I started trying to clean it up, of course

Don’t want to stain anything

And I also remembered I’m supposed to work at 4:30 am. Had my outfit set out and everything.

I know that’s not happening. So I text my boss, asking if she’s available , and then try not to choke sob when she calls.

Will probably lose my job and I don’t blame them, clearly it’s me. Clearly I am fucked up

I’m just so fucking tired

I’m so tired

So yes I’m dumping the rest of the handle down the drain.

And IWNDWYT